Sweet Lana has been encouraging me to write a Blog. I’m not sure I’m up to the task, but when she offered to host me as a guest Blogger, how could I refuse her. She is brave, gracious, perhaps a bit foolish, and kind; a great teacher.
I came to know her by way of a comment at Sazan’s Blog, Madalawi. While emailing, the notion of “showing your true colors” came up; if I recall Lana was teasing me, about something I revealed. This reminded me of Cyndi Lauper's encouraging True Colors, and then (I knew Lana liked Alanis Morsette) I remembered Everything, loving all of someone, their light and their dark.
Lana and I have never met in person; we didn’t know of each other 4 weeks ago. As we emailed and I read the blogs she wrote, was I seeing the “real” Lana? As she puts herself out in front of the public, unknown strangers, does she show her true colors? Would I?
Are we reserved, treading carefully, not wanting to offend, wanting to leave a kind impression, or maybe a smart, carefree and invulnerable one. Do we put on a front, the person we wish to be or the one we want to be seen? Do we hold back, afraid to offend, afraid to be wrong or even ridiculed?
What are our true colors? Are they who we are, who we’ve been or who we want to be? Are they what we’ve done in all the past, yesterday, a few moments or decades ago? Is it the words we write or the voice that says them? Is it what we look like, or how we would like to to be perceived? Is it our good hair or our bad hair day? If we show our colors will we be afraid of rejection, rejection our true colors or just the ones we dared to show?
We conjure up all kinds of images when we write and read words, and then again once we hear each others' voices, when we see each other in photos and then live. Are we afraid the real you or the real me isn’t who we imagined? Are we afraid the affection will fade as we get to know each other better?
What are our true colors? Who we are or who we want to be? Who get’s to decide? If we let them shine though, will they change, becoming brighter or will the reaction make us afraid?
I hope your true colors can come shining through, and that you love, and someone loves all your colors, all the brights, and all the dark (your laundry? ;-).
Thanks to the wise, kind women who inspired and encouraged this post.
Dancing Brook (aka Peter K Martel)