As I sat there with myself.... away from an eclectic civilization, the social noise, the political disappointments, and my beloved family, I considered my life; the joys, the pains, the hurt, the doubts and self- doubts, but then considered the constructions, the understating, the love (both for self and others), and finally, the light.
I was considering ALL of it, when two songs drifted into my speakers; We are the Champions, and Hold On by Sarah McLachlan, - a Canadian artist who is responsible for writing and singing, my favorite song while at Purdue, Building A Mystery. even though, I still have to Google Search how to spell her name.
Then it all came together for me... I realized, that in my life, I have had many great mentors; my grandfathers, my father, my husband, my children, my brother, my teachers. Each the overseer of educating me on the meaning of life; how to love and be loved, how to live and to struggle, and yet, more importantly, they showed me how to continue showing up to my performances on life's stage, the next- day.
There was also my mother, along with my grandmothers, and my sister. Each exhibited how to shine and to shine through, be heard , be respected and to just be oneself
On this sole and soul journey, I rediscovered what I call "The Quad REs"; REflect, REground, REcenter and REfocus... It was a journey that I should have taken ages ago, or maybe it had come at the right time, or better still, I will definitely continue doing in the future? It took me through whirlpools, rapids and calm waters. It allowed me to connect to my core.
During this REdiscovery, I talked to my parents, my children, my husband and (freaky for you or not) my dear Tata; a representative of the "ancestral world", who visited me in my dreams. They were all with me in that cottage all alone for five days. Each still planting grains, still tending, still present. I was SO grateful!
I realized that our stories are never ending, that they will continue to swim through many generations after us, as they did before us. We are here to learn, to guide and most importantly, to grow (just as Gandalf did in The Lord of the Rings). Ha! I love THAT perspective of my life!
I am grateful and blushing with that realization. IlhamduliLah!
