The past week has not been the easiest of weeks but I am totally surfing the rough wave. I guess one has to go through difficult phases in his or her everyday life to be able to enjoy and appreciate the days when everything goes smoothly. I believe that one does not go through life without a glitch or a bump in the road ever. How will we learn how to be strong and face those obstacles if everything is handed to us on a silver platter or is resolved for us? CUUUUUT.... HOLD ON a second.... Why not? Why can't we have everything go smoothly for the rest of our lives??? Why can't we have a magic wand that with a flick of a wrist would make everything fairytale fantastic?
Why do I have to remind myself that I will always find a person or a situation that demands my patience and therefore have to let things go? Why do I have to remind myself over and over again to think and to hold back my tongue for fear of stirring up more trouble for myself and others? Why can't I say, "Stop shooting off your mouth and be a little more considerate and respectful to the person standing in front of you?" or "Stop your childish behavior and act as an adult!"?
I guess life is not a fairytale for anyone even for the rich and famous who can buy whatever they want. I must admit that I do not understand everything about life but one thing I know... it is not fair. I am born into a privileged family and have a roof over my head, a supportive family and healthy kids.
Putting that into perspective, my struggles are minor superficial wounds that wouldn't leave any scares to cry about compared to the many out there who have absolutely nothing to cry about... at least I have a job that brings in the bread and support my family.The saying "That which does not kill you only makes you stronger" always rings in my ears whenever something unpleasant unexpectedly pops up, my professional reasoning is questioned and described as emotive, when I am faced with judgmental comments that imply something about me which are untrue or get into an argument with a friend.
After I vent a little to those who support me,I have to let things go and accept that it is what it is. I just need to ride the wave as I am confident that it will soon hit the beach and flatten out.I just need to believe and take a deep breath. I need to repeat to myself that I am one of the lucky ones and to millions of unfortunate people out there, I am living a fairy tale.